Problem

They are just messing around so I have to fill word codes on my normal blog about something they don't even like talking about.

Issue

They want me to think my dad has been with me all the time.  They are trying to make up stuff to bother me.  It is not something I do and is in a way I don't like.

Sneaky Message

I got a sneaky message maybe.

Taking It Too Far

My mom is saying these people I like with them I deserve nothing and keeps saying things.

Issue

They hurt me whenever I want to Tweet to someone famous and follow them sometimes.  You know, they don't Tweet much now, like ammo for some reason that people can read everything they say like it's important they don't be as close to me or something.  It does feel suspicious.  I have a right to think that.  I do wish they would Tweet more happily, but if they aren't happy I guess they wouldn't.  I already said I can't tell people like who to pay attention to, and I want what's good for them.  I just felt it seemed like something sneaky maybe told to do by Ellen DeGeneres, like a game.

Issue

They are saying no just because I thought they were on a good side.

The people experimenting on me made them sound tacky, saying, "N00!"

Hurting Me

Supposedly, someone has to be hurt.  Someone I like is supposedly hurting me.

Issue

I think someone got mad at me and thinks they can tell other people what to do with my life.  I just felt disappointed some to have to translate what they say secretly.

Issue

They are acting like I hurt someone.

Issue

It might have dropped something important with someone else.

Issue

I just came into the kitchen and there he was.

Playing Around

My dad put something somewhere if I ever went there with him to think about.

Annoyed

The people watching me in private in my room are being annoyingly hurtful so that I get mad at the way they relay messages from others.  I don't know why anyone would interrupt my life annoying me like that when I like them.  I'm just upset about what happened at the restaurant.  I bet some involved are proud they made someone feel bad in a certain way, tho it was supposedly my fault.

My Dad

He keeps trying to get close to me when he bothers me.  I wonder if he needs more company.

Problem

I'm still really having a problem with feeling a certain way about something.

Problem

I don't want to go thru being hurt because I was upset.  I was in bed longer.  My dad secretly said, "I'll be the time," like I need to be punished.  Lots of people do wrong things and they are adults and no one cares about them.  I don't think I was all that bad.  People were attacking me, getting under my skin, like a stampede.

Still

I feel a threat.

Mad

They are getting mad at me for what I said.

Problem

They keep doing it.

Problem

They are bitter against me.

Issue

They have messed with how my body works with something.

Problem

They keep hurting and bothering me.

OK

So, I just woke up.  I don't think I'm a bad person.  I explained what I did.  Go deal with yourself!

I think the fact I said, "Stop," when touching the trays with silverware is what caused people to be ticked off and try to tick me off yet more.

I caught another table looking at me etc. while I ate.

I guess I need to remember even more that people will be meaner to me if I am gooder.  I just didn't want that guy to get away with it!  I didn't do anything that weird.  I sorta followed him and made the little noises.  I can't believe how calm, cool, and collected he was with insulting me when I did nothing wrong "yet."  He must be passive aggressive.

It was something weird tho and now I have to put up with people thinking I am bad and retreating my relationships.

They just made one of my relationships seem tacky and removed and grouped with others when of my life they have been a great part.

They are making someone talk like someone I knew but piping up in an annoying way, not forming words properly, sounding sleepy, playing it sweet, etc.  I guess that's what some people are like.  They've done this a lot for awhile.

They have been ruining my capability in how I talk and feel about it at the time at least and then got mad and took something away from a relationship cuz I felt upset.  I don't think they had a real reason.

It feels like my life is dysfunctional.  It's always, "Stop, drop, and roll," about keeping relationships or not, like if I feel upset or do something rather weird in their opinion.

Some of those judging me actually is unpleasant and provokes me.  So, if I am pleasant doesn't mean they are, in a way.  It just makes me feel bad.

I am almost done and they made a word stick.  They always pipe in like it's Ellen DeGeneres saying what I said doesn't matter if it's about prejudice to me.

I don't wanna put up with this!  This is making life hard even more.  I don't know what right people have to give me cruel and unusual punishment, tho it's not really in some ways at least.  I don't think I'd be arrested.  People lied in how they acted about suggesting I did something worse than I did, exaggerating.  I think it's cuz my dad does that and was with me.  I can't even feel what I done.

So?  It feels like I'm not finished here.  I decided to try harder to ignore things.  I already was doing better at it.